Before now, I never saw being loyal and loving deeply as a flaw.
I will never not follow my heart.
I've always seen those things as positives not negatives.
I never thought they would be something that affected me so deeply or something I would have to explain to someone else.
While they may be flaws, I cannot and will not change.
I would rather love too deeply than to not care at all, and I would rather be loyal than uncaring.
I am loyal to an extent.
I know when to be loyal and when not to be.
But I will do anything in my power to help my friends and loved ones and stand by them. No matter what.
I take a while to fall in love, but when I do it is unconditional.
Yes, that may lead to heartbreak or pain at times, but it is worth it in the end, or so I believe.
My loyalty and love go hand in hand. When I love someone there isn't much I would not do for them. I only ever want to do what is best for them, and us. I want our love to last.
My intentions are always pure.
I worry too much and overthink too much, I am aware of this. I am okay with this, although I am trying to change. I am trying to be less worrying and trying to learn to stop myself from overthinking before it gets too overwhelming.
Yes, I worry. I worry because I care a lot. I worry about a lot of things in life, I worry about myself, my work, my friends, and most of all my partner. It may be overbearing at times, but I promise I never mean to be mothering or overprotective. It's just in my nature to worry. This may cause me anxiety and mental health problems, but I would rather be worrying than uncaring. I am trying to worry less, I am.
I am trying to better myself every day.
I have a hard time conveying my feelings to my loved ones.
I love hard.
I am determined to have a healthy relationship. I want to have a relationship where we challenge each other to be better people. A relationship where we support and listen to each other. A relationship where we both are putting in equal effort, yet it all seems effortless. I want our minds and bodies to be healthy.
I also want a relationship where a lot of good memories are made, lots of pictures are taken, a lot of fun is had, and where you can be yourself and be crazy without regret or judgement.
I promise to stick by my loved ones no matter what. I will stay through thick and thin. You cannot push me away. Pure love.
I believe in soul-mates, I never used to. But from experience, I 100% believe they exist. And while they may not be perfect in every way or to others, they are perfect to you. You will never get a soul-mate who is already built into the person they are meant to be. Your soul-mate and yourself will require love and attention.
Your soul-mate will need you to challenge them and encourage them. They will need your support and your confidence.
You will have your ups and downs, phases you think you'll never get through. But you will get through them if you want to. If you need help, you should always be able to and want to turn to your partner.
When you fight, be mature. Try not to stay calm. Yell if you need to show your frustration, but never let it get out of hand. Don't be passive-aggressive or spiteful. You can work through every fight and issue in your relationship. There is a solution for every situation.
It doesn't matter what anybody thinks. What matters is how you feel about each other.
Don't let outsiders views get in the way of how you feel and act towards each other, it is not their relationship it is yours.
Always be proud of your partner, even when they're being a little silly. Forget the past mistakes, but remember the lesson learned from them.
Remember you both need space and time to yourself; a healthy balance.
For some reason, I do require communication between myself and my partner, not a lot. But enough to be called a healthy and loving relationship.
Relationships are not easy, they require work and attention. Sometimes it will not be 50/50, sometimes it will be 80/20, but you will suck it up because they need you and you love them. A relationship may be stressful at times. But by God, I can assure you, it is worth everything you go through. The end result will be amazing and pure and full of love. There will be no regret where there is love.
At the end of the day, it's all about the first person you want to tell good news to.
I may come across as controlling or mothering but I promise I just care a lot. I have a lot of feelings. I'm just bad at conveying this in the correct way.
But know one thing, I love unconditionally. There are no bounds or borders to my love. Mental health, mine or my partners, will never change that. I may love too deeply, but I am okay with that.
This is a mess of a post, and I have not conveyed it well, but I never do. It is hard. I have a lot of feelings and a lot of hope. I am overly optimistic, but I am okay with that.
I may not be where I want to be, but at least I am not where I used to be.
I have only ever been in love once. I am in love.
I am not weak, inferior or pathetic.
Everyone needs a few flaws to make them real.
Go where the love is.
I am content.
"The pain that you have been feeling can not compare to the joy that is coming"
Romans 8:18
"You came near when I called you, and you said, "Do not fear."
Lamentations 3:57
“Be not afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it cometh. For the Lord shall be thy confidence, and shall keep thy foot from being taken.”
Proverbs 3:25-26 KJV
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